As many of you know this past year has been one trial after another for the F.O.Y.ministry. Yahuwah has shown us exceptional mercy while performing miraculous miracles. He revealed to us years ago, that our journey here on planet earth, is likened unto a wild roller coaster ride! Indeed whatever He speaks, it comes to pass!
Just like the amusement park ride, our journey has had many inclines, dips, curves and loops. We have lived through the most testing of times. From our experiences, when all hope seems to be gone, those are the moments when Yahuwah works in the most supernatural of ways. As promised the Mighty One of Yisra’el has never left nor forsaken us. These tests, no matter how small, large, short or at great lengths is when our mustard seed of faith grows.
No matter the turn, curve or the many dips you are embarking on, know that Yahuwah is in control. Through your belief in Yahushua you shall be an Overcomer!
“These things I have spoken unto you, that in me you might have peace. In the world you shall have tribulation: but be good cheer; I have overcome the world.” -John 16:33
These tests and obstacles are character building blocks! Despite your present circumstance, lean not on your own understanding but in all ways continue to trust that Yahuwah is in control (Proverbs 3:5). Yes you can rejoice knowing that something far better awaits you, your loved ones and the rest of us peculiar people.
“And not only this, but we also exult in pressures, knowing that pressure works endurance; and endurance, approvedness; and approvedness, expectation. And expectation does not disappoint, because the love of Elohim has been poured out in our hearts by the Set-apart Spirit which was given to us.”–Romans 5:3-5
Some of you might be thinking, “Yeah, yeah…I know all this but I can’t take anymore!” or “You just don’t understand my situation” or how about “You never walk a mile in my shoes.”
You’re right; I never walked in your shoes. I don’t need to understand your situation. And yes you can take more. I know this because we are told the following:
“No trial has overtaken you except such as in common to man and Yahuwah is trustworthy, who shall not allow you to be tried beyond what you are able, but with the trial shall also make the way of escape, enabling you to bear it.” -1 Co. 10:13
Whatever you are going through, no matter how bad the situation is He is more than able to make a way for you to endure the test. You might be putting your thoughts around your circumstance, trying to find some plausible reasoning behind your current situation. You might even feel like you’re going insane! All the ‘why’s’ and the ‘how comes’ alone is enough to shatter you. Right when you are about to be broken, that is when Yahuwah will send you’re personal miracle!
I speak of experience as I was at that point of almost no return. Since I suffered with bleeding ulcers for twenty long painful months I know firsthand that long suffering can take its toil on the human body especially the mind. If I would have known the symptoms seven years ago I could have quickly taken the proper measures. But out of ignorance I just dealt with the anemia, constant bloating, gas and belching.
Then the day came when I was so anemic that I awoke to head spinning and dizziness. I could not move my whole head for an entire hour. This was the start of a sickness I desire no one to have to endure. I felt like my entire digestive system just came to an abrupt halt! For four days I belched constantly; were talking morning, noon and all through the night. By the fifth day, the excruciating pain came. This pain I would deal with every day for the next 10 months.
Needless to say, by day ten I was finished! I’m sure each of you has been to that point. My vivid memory recalls the entire ordeal just like it occurred yesterday. Somewhere deep within the pit of my being, a cry of total helplessness erupted from within. Throwing myself onto my bed, I hallood for Yahuwah to help me. Brothers and Sister’s when you cry out for some help Yahuwah is trustworthy and faithful. Like a rush of water being poured over me I heard, “I will heal you!” Believing on HIS words, I thanked HIM.
The day’s that followed my symptoms increased and I got worst. Even though He told me “I will heal you” I was passing tarry stools. I could not wrap my mind around it. At times my heart rate would sky rocket to 170 beats per minute. Twice we had to make a dash to the E.R. I was dehydrated. My weight was rapidly decreasing. Before I knew it six weeks had past. I finally was fed up with dealing with this sickness, setting all my distrust, fears and lack of trust to the side, I found myself sitting in a….doctor’s office. I had not been seen by a doctor in years. My human mind could not grasp what was going on. I could not comprehend what the holdup was. I had many people fasting days for me yet I was not getting better. Those words, “I will heal you”were not being manifested into my flesh. ‘Why?’…‘Would He still do it?’… ‘Did He change his mind?’… “Was my healing to take place in this lifetime”…or “Was His mercy sufficient for me?” All these thoughts raced through my mind. My thoughts were spinning out of control.
After the examination the doctor diagnosed me with ulcer(s). Not surprising since for years I washed down Ibuprofen 800’s with cans of coke cola. Sure each bottle said, “Take with food if stomach upset occurs.” How was I to know I was ingesting atomic bombs? I opt out on the doctor’s remedy of acid suppressing drugs. His way might have been a quick short term fix but instead I chose herbal therapy along with hope.
Like a baby, I whined a lot. I just didn’t understand the why’s and how’s. I soon learned since it takes the body time to get in a dis-ease state, it can take even longer to heal. The longest I had ever been sick was when I was a child with walking pneumonia. I thought being sick for one month was bad but this…this was almost unbearable. I was too scared to have any doctor run a scope down into my stomach; my heart was not prepared to hear that a portion of my stomach would have to be removed. So I got by the best I could.
The hands of time went round and round, while I still waited on Yahuwah’s healing. I spent hours on learning the different options on how to heal ulcers. I learned much about how the digestive system works. Just as I had to be deprogrammed from all the inherit lies about religion I also had to relearn what foods are good and what foods are not meant to be ingested. Trust me, when your stomach hates you, it is really really bad!
Eight long painful months had passed and I was slowly started to see an improvement. The pain was getting much better. I was able to eat more foods. I was walking on cloud nine! Finally, this whole ordeal was behind me. So I thought anyway.
Ten months to the day of the initial sickness, an event occurred that literally changed my life. I witnessed my only daughter get hit by a truck doing 65 m.p.h. Within two weeks of nothing but stress those wounds reopened. I felt like a weight had been dropped from the Eiffel tower hitting me right on the head! Yeah, I was crushed. I had to restart everything all over again.
Just when I was starting to get a little better something so small seemed to set me back. To make matters worse, a few holler than thou’s had to put their two cents in (please read “Why must we suffer?”). Trying to pin point all this tribulation on some sin we committed. We are not without sin however to make such blatant claims saying all this is because we are proclaiming the name. Or because we are not keeping the Lunar Sabbath, or whatever…was like kicking us when we are already down. Yet through all this I continued to trust and depend on Yahuwah.
See, back in the day when a person had ulcers they were put on complete bed rest for 4 to 6 months. My situation had gotten so bad that I became debilitated. Weighting only 103 pounds, I was wasting away. I had not strength, bones sticking out all over, muscle tone almost completely gone. Soon I found myself in bed! I had my highs and I had my lows. My lows were pretty bad. A few times I was on the brink of no return! Through the pain and weakness, I still had hope. Sure by now those words, “I will heal you” didn’t seem real anymore.
And then when I least suspected it something remarkable occurred. Exactly twenty months had passed to the day when I heard the sweet words, “Rise up my child, I heal you. This test is over!”
Tears fell from my eyes. ‘Could it be…was it true?’…‘Test; what test?’…‘Did I pass?’ ‘Oh no, what if….what if…I failed?’… ‘I didn’t even know I was in some test, oh no!’… ‘I could have done better if I would have known I was taking a test.’
A title wave of mixed feeling and thoughts overcame me. I quickly prayed that if this be of Yahuwahthen the word would be established by another. Sure enough, by the mouth of two or three witnesses every word shall be established. The healing was revealed through Danny and Michael also. We praised Yahuwah while thanking Yahushua, for by His stripes we are healed.
Of course, when I did not receive instant results, the evil one did try to lead me to question. Sure enough at times I did. Those words echoed deep within me, “Rise up my child, I heal you…this test is over!” As each day passed, I believed in His words. We prayed that His words would soon be manifested into my flesh. Five weeks after hearing those sweet words a chain reaction of events occurred leading up to seeing the healing He promised.
Watch and behold the power of Yahuwah! You see I had a server allergic reaction to rancid flax seed. This ordeal about killed me; causing me to be put on complete bed rest for about six weeks. We went to see the doctor just to see if how I was getting over the allergic reaction. If I had not had the reaction, I would have never gone to see a doctor. That in return, upon seeing me, he had me admitted that very same day. While at the hospital they performed many test including the scope!
The doctor explained that “It has been a long time since he saw a stomach look that good!” HalleluYah! There were no ulcers, no inflammation, no yeast overgrowth nor even the hp bacteria. I was healed! Seeing the pictures of inside my stomach and deu area was remarkable! I had been eight weeks since I heard those wonderful words, “Rise up my child, I heal you…this test is over!” I still have to gain muscle and some weight.
Let it be noted here I deeply thank each of you for praying, fasting and sharing advice with me.
I like, many of you do not fully comprehend all the whys. I spent many hours pondering about the woman who had an issue of blood. She dealt with this for twelve years. Being very anemic myself, I could relate as I’m sure many other woman can also. I thought about all the money she spent seeing this doctor and that doctor. Yet none was able to heal her. From the Scriptures she went through a lot just from seeing all the different doctors trying to stop the bleeding. Scriptures don’t really say all things she tried but it does say she actually got worse.
I’m sure she heard all the talk about what this man called Yahushua was doing. Healing the sick, casting out demon and she knew if she could get close enough to Him, she would be made whole. Broken with despair, in her heart she set off that day determined to meet the man named Yahushua! Let us remember, that this poor woman had blood flowing from her for 12 years! Imagine how she felt? I believe she was at her breaking point because back then an unclean woman was forbidden to enter the temple, pray or even touch a man. She was isolated and must have been extremely lonely. She didn’t care though because she had enough faith.
“And a certain woman had a flow of blood for twelve, years, and had suffered much from many physicians, and spent all that she had and was no better, but rather became worse. Having heard about Yahushua, she came behind Him in the crowd and touched His garment, for she said, “If I only touch His garments, I shall be made well.” And immediately the fountain of her blood was dried up, and she felt in her body that she was healed of the affliction. And immediately Yahushua knowing in Himself that power had gone out of Him, turned around in the crowd and said, “Who touched My garments?” And His taught ones said to Him, “You see the crowd is thronging You, and You say, ‘Who touched Me?’ “And He was looking around to see her who did this. And the woman, fearing and trembling, knowing what was done to her, came and fell down before Him and spoke to Him all the truth. And He said to her, “Daughter, your belief has healed you. Go in peace, and be relieved from your affliction.” —Mathew 5:25-34
HalleluYah! I cry tears of joy. I’ve often wondered when she woke up that morning if she knew that day would be the day she would be healed! I hope this woman has inspired you to continue on trusting, believing and hoping for your day to come.
The woman with the issue of blood was not the only one to suffer greatly. Scriptures describe a poor man that was diseased for thirty-eight years. He lay by the healing pool called Bethesda hoping to be healed. As it turns out, a great number of other people who were sick, blind, crippled, paralyzed was also waiting to be healed (John 5:3). These suffering people would patiently wait for the moving of the water and who ever got in the water first would be cured of their disease (John 5:4).
This man was so sick he could not make it to the pool and no one would put him in the water. Scriptures don’t tell us if this man was dropped off every morning or if he more or less lived there. What we do know is Yahushua told him:
“Do you wish to become well?” The sick man answered Him, “Master, I have no man to put me into the pool when the water is stirred, but while I am coming, another steps down before me.” Yahushua said to him, “Rise, take up your bed and walk” And immediately the man became well, and he took up his bed and was walking….” John 5:6-9
Brothers and sisters thirty-eight years is a very long time to be sick. Yet he was cured. Yahuwah’s timing is perfect. Let us not forget the poor woman who was bent over for eighteen long years (Luke 13:11)! We must be patient. Each of us has obstacles to overcome. Being believers we were never promised a bed of roses but we were promised a way to endure. Trust me, the trials and tribulations you are experiencing are molding, shaping and teaching you. To learn on why we suffering read, “Why must we suffer?”
I wanted to take this time and deeply thank each of you for praying for me. Words will never fully express how thankful I am. If you have not yet been to the F.O.Y. Global Prayer Network please check it out. If you have a prayer request you can post your request. You can be assured there are faithful prayer warriors out there. Not only is this Blog good for those who need prayer but when I was in bed, praying for others greatly helped me.
Written By L. McGuire